Been awhile. Don't know why - got busy, got happy, got a car. You know...life stuff.
It's easier to write when I'm upset or crabby, but I haven't been much of either lately. There is a lot of stuff I wish were different, a lot I wish I had that I don't, but all in all I have a pretty sweet life and I am just trying to live it. Lame sentiment, I know, but I am really focusing on getting rid of as much of the negative as I can because it really does just poison your outlook on everything and I was so tired of feeling poisoned all the time. The money, the prestige, the size 3 pants...that is all window dressing on a life that I might one day have. For now I have a stable job, awesome friends, a wonderful boyfriend, a CAR (thank the lord I don't believe in)...it's enough. Not to say that I'm settling or expecting it to be like this forever, but...well. For now, for this moment, it's enough. I am happy.
At night, I would rather go to bed grateful for what I had that day than obsessing over what I didn't. It's a good place to be in, this head space of mine. I'm digging it.
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